Marriage & the Thin Blue Line

I heard a quote the other day that made me smile. “Marriage is like a walk in the park – Jurassic Park!!!” Lol, how true is that!?! My husband, Ed, and I have spent almost 26 years hurtling the dinosaurs of life together (31 if you add in our dating years). We are as opposite as can be. I am a city mouse, raised by a full of life, dramatic, hardworking single mom. My idea of wildlife was the occasional squirrel. I was (was?) un-athletic, book smart, and a good girl. I moved often growing up and have a knack for conforming to my environment and am motivated by the desire to please. Our family plus my newly acquired father moved to Maine when I was 14. That is where I met the dark, handsome, and very confident Ed. It was infatuation at first sight for the both of us. Ed, was not a lover of school, but loved the outdoors and all things woodsy. He was also very athletic, strong, and opinionated and had an attitude. He didn’t seem to care what anyone thought and I loved his rebellious persona. Think of us as Baby and Johnny from Dirty Dancing - but without the dancing, or the lake, or the premarital behavior – Ok, we were really nothing like Dirty Dancing. But, it was still very romantic. Of course, once I got to really know him, I discovered this sweet and sappy side of Ed. And he quickly learned that I am not always as nice as I like to appear.

Ed had always been drawn to law enforcement and even as a young man had a clear sense of right and wrong. This strength of character has led him from being part of Security Forces in the Air Force, to a Winston-Salem Police Officer, to the Security Director for Calvary Baptist Church, to training police officers in Iraq, to Assistant VP of Corporate Security for Bank of America to now as a Corrections Officer for the Forsyth County Sheriff’s Dept. Whew! What a varied, yet cohesive career over the past 26 years! I could and probably will do a whole blog on Ed’s career journey. Ed has seen just about every side of human nature that there is to see. It amazes me that he can daily shod off most of what he sees and experiences at the threshold of our front door and is able to maintain the mostly kind and squishy Ed that his family and friends know him to be.

If you know me well, or have read a previous blog, you are probably wondering how our marriage survives with how high-risk Ed’s career path has been mixed with my anxiety issues and naïve nature. Well, first of all, I feel being an officers spouse (or a fireman’s spouse, an EMT’s, etc.) is a calling. And I am proud of my role as his supporter. I also believe very strongly in Ed’s personal calling and the need for the greater good. I also trust Ed completely and I believe that Ed is safer in the will of God than even in a bubble wrapped room outside of it.

All of those statements are true, completely – 100%. But let me share a little secret. Here are also some real life, not so proud of way that I cope: 1) I have no memory. None - think a very tall Dory. So, even if Ed tells me a very traumatic story, chances are, it will be forgotten in a few days. 2) I also have a very short attention span, so often when Ed is telling me stuff (ok, total transparency here), if he doesn’t tell me quickly, my mind is already wandering. Oh, another thing is 3) yes, I have anxiety, but not usually about the big important things. The fact that Ed risks his life every day? No problem! Our daughter is moving off to Texas? No sweat!! But, get me thinking about a zombie apocalypse, getting lost, driving off a bridge, or my dogs missing me if I am gone too long – forget about it! Yes, this makes for a very confused woman, but it helps me cope with my husband’s unusual schedule and work environment.

There is one thing that I confess that I have a hard time coping with though. And that is the perception that some people have of Law Enforcement. If you want to see me lose the nice girl, just start talking about police and prejudice. Is there prejudice on the force? Absolutely! I bet there is prejudice where you work too. Are there dirty cops? Unfortunately, yes. I wish there was a way to ensure that every sworn officer always held him/herself to the highest standard. But just like there are bad apples in teaching, the medical field, churches, business offices, in every career – there will be officers undeserving of the badge. But, for anyone to think for a half minute that someone would go into law enforcement to target a select group of people is ridiculous. These civil servants give up sleep, family time, finances, security, safety, holidays and respect to make sure that the law of the land is upheld. Just imagine if every job was like law enforcement. Imagine knowing you were a target. If not of personal danger, than of disrespect. What if because of where you worked that you couldn’t have your home number listed or address printed anywhere for protection of your loved ones? That you had to have a camera on you at all times to record your every interaction? How would you deal with all that? And, then after a 12 hour shift, possible a rotating, alternating shift like Ed’s is, you need to come home and play with your kids, mow the lawn, visit your parents and go to church. You have seen sin in every form possible and yet you need to be the perfect officer at work and then perfectly normal at home. This is why it is a calling. To think that anyone would subject themselves to these standards for any sort of wrong motive is insulting. And I strongly believe that if and when an officer can’t live up to these almost impossible standards, then he should be moved to a different area. Out of respect for him and for what he represents.

Thank you for reading my blog and thank you for praying for the men and women in blue. Thank you for praying for their families as well.  Every life matters.  Every life deserves respect. I have been blown away with the stories Ed has told me of his interaction in the jail over the past 3 years. Yes, since it is me, he tells me in condensed versions, but I love hearing his heart and respect for the inmates. To quote Martin Luther King – “The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stand in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stand at times of challenge and controversy”. I am proud that my man stand on the thin blue line.  Below are some sobering statistics regarding law enforcement officers. These brave men and women are some of our countries greatest treasures -

There are more than 900,000 sworn law enforcement officers now serving in the United States, which is the highest figure ever. About 12 percent of those are female.

 

Crime fighting has taken its toll. Since the first recorded police death in 1791, there have been over 20,000 law enforcement officers killed in the line of duty. Currently, there are 20,789 names engraved on the walls of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial.

 

A total of 1,439 law enforcement officers died in the line of duty during the past 10 years, an average of one death every 61 hours or 144 per year. There were 123 law enforcement officers killed in the line of duty in 2015.

 

There have been 15,725 assaults against law enforcement officers in 2014, resulting in 13,824 injuries.

 

New York City has lost more officers in the line of duty than any other department, with 705 deaths. Texas has lost 1,682 officers, more than any other state. The state with the fewest deaths is Vermont, with 23.

 

There are 1,102 federal officers listed on the Memorial, as well as 668 correctional officers and 36 military law enforcement officers.

 

              There are 292 female officers on the Memorial; 11 female officers were killed in 2015.


Always Sincerely,
Shannan